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12/5/05 08:32 pm - dont call me baby

is it me?
why do we fight?
from the outside of our "family" it all looks happy, we are cute, we match, we dance, we are two halfs to a whole...yeah we are alot alike..but we are diffrent people two diffrent girls of diffrent ages of diffrent minds.

i would like our relationship be the one it is at the club...
it was at first. we were in love. we had found our missing half...

when it was just us evrything was grand. we could sit and laugh and be girls. we started going to the club to dance! not to get into a family and then drawn into all of this club drama shit...we fell head first into a black hole...

im not saying i dont love the club because i do it is my fav. place a place i can be myself. or the person i want to be. but i feel like the people and the things that have come out of it are draging me and my best freind down. we arnt how we were befor...she gets mad at me every single day..about one thing or a diffrent thing...its alwasy me..me fucking up..me with the problems..i see that yes i have shit going on and i am not making the best choices in how to deal with my problems...

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is it me?
why do we fight?
from the outside of our "family" it all looks happy, we are cute, we match, we dance, we are two halfs to a whole...yeah we are alot alike..but we are diffrent people two diffrent girls of diffrent ages of diffrent minds.

i would like our relationship be the one it is at the club...
it was at first. we were in love. we had found our missing half...

when it was just us evrything was grand. we could sit and laugh and be girls. we started going to the club to dance! not to get into a family and then drawn into all of this club drama shit...we fell head first into a black hole...

im not saying i dont love the club because i do it is my fav. place a place i can be myself. or the person i want to be. but i feel like the people and the things that have come out of it are draging me and my best freind down. we arnt how we were befor...she gets mad at me every single day..about one thing or a diffrent thing...its alwasy me..me fucking up..me with the problems..i see that yes i have shit going on and i am not making the best choices in how to deal with my problems...

<side note rant only a few will understand..>
you have someone in your life now so it will never be just you and me it cant it will always be you me and him..it has been for a long time i have got use to that but i need someone to i need to be heald to be loved to have somone to cuddle with wile you are not around, if you can have it i can to! let me have her. let me be happy. if i wanted to be with a guy you wouldnt care who it was but becasue maybe that somone is a girl you get jelous...you cant have him and me...i have let you go to a point wear i know we will never be us..so let me have someone...i need a her. you me always first second them him and her....

<side note done>

i gone and fucked up..i get that dont rub it in...

love you and i dont want somthing like this to be the end of us.
Current Music: school bells

11/9/05 12:40 pm - people.

i feel like a bitch but its true...








you fuck with my freinds and you will get fucked back...


heheh we will rape you!

ahhh scary!


kami raping you is scary!
Current Music: the sound of lincoln high school!
Current Mood: eating babys!

10/26/05 08:38 pm - fadsfjadfkahkhga

amiricas next top model woot woot

10/18/05 05:22 pm - that dam cat

so i was walking down the street the other day andi totally saw this really really really ugly cat, it resembled kami's cat, alot, and im pretty sure the two are related.... well, this one was not as white and furry, but i dislike it way more. so anyways back to the story...

so i was wlaking right, well driving.. but anyways.. i came to a stop sign that i definitely didnt sop for... and i see this really really really ugly cat walking down the street like it owned everything when clearly it didnt. ANYWAYS... i see this cat and i decide it needs to die... hahahaha, it kind of reminded me of the SMYRK version of the alice in woderland show when maddi played a cat and did " dont cha" hahahaha, the best version of that song EVER done by a WOMAN!!! but i really just wanted to run this cat over... so i did...


the end
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Current Music: i hate you so much right now
Current Mood: ecstatic

10/6/05 05:23 pm - ballet class...is a drag.

so i got aksed if i was goign to run for homcoming, told i looked like a vampire, and fell asleep in biochemistry. school week sucked. i cant wait for the weekend! it should be a good one. i need to stop eating, and take a shower. im board and none of this ,atters to any of you but i shall still go blabbering on about my day. hmmmmmmmm i have a paper to write about russia. oh speeking of russia. there is this bitch that i want to smack across the face named kristina. she is from russia...once apon a time. and she has been starting rummers about me, and she kissed my bestfriends boyfriend. heheeheee. i hope i dream of bubbles. tootles
Current Music: ratatat
Current Mood: cold

9/28/05 05:41 pm - i puked in my mouth

beign sick is fun. i think i am the one person who loves to be sick. dont ask me why.


shit school sucks and evryone hates me as of now. dont ask me why? again?
i have good classes and i am getting use to waking up early.
i am moving out in 9 months. that means i have 9 months to 1. earn 1000 dollors. 2. get a fucking job. 3. find a place to live that is about 350-400 a month. sucka....
cant wait!


bitches out.

short and sweet.
Current Music: bleed like me
Current Mood: sick

9/28/05 04:49 pm

Greetings!

I just want to let you know that you're still signed in at the MAC store, but fear not for I am going to log you out after I post this entry.

You should be weary of wanderers that might be able to get into your account, so make sure that you sign out!

Love,
Nik Anonymous

9/8/05 09:23 pm - I HATE RUMERS!

fucking really people have the balls to tell me shit to my face. i am little. its easy i am not scary. so fucking stop all the bullshit lies. because i am really sick of being a dirty drugie whore lesbian with no friends!

ahhh i am a really nice and shy person. just because i dont talk to you dose not mean i am a bicth or dont like you. it means i am shy and dont know what to say! so gaaaaaa if you have heard a rumer. ask me i WILL tell you the truth.

shit thanks now i am crying!
Current Music: the cure
Current Mood: embarrassed

9/5/05 02:33 pm - hang up the phone.

woo hoo family BBQ my fav.

atleast tess is coming.

i think.

last time i went to a family bbq they asked me stuff like.."whats that stupid thing in your nose." "little too much black eye linner dont cha think?" "when will you ever keep you hair just one color?"
evryone gets it. i go eat there food drink there soda..and vodka..take the "kami is a reble" jokes...
i look like evryone else! ahhh i have a nose ring i like my black eyelinner and pink is my favoret color..yet..i am still the PUNK ROCKER of the family.

i cant wait till somone has a goth kid...that will be wonderful!


till that day.

its overly asked qustions for me.

maybe ill move on to somthing a bit stronger this time. like some JD.

K
Current Music: the decemberists
Current Mood: cynical

9/4/05 06:28 pm - i dont really know why...

i feel like sleeping all day. i went to a party last night. things happend. i dont really know whats going on with me. i mean i have strong feelings for someone. who cares about me but three things. he is always working, he is important and might get judged if we was with me...that brings us the last one..im to young. oh and i think he is still inlove with his ex. not that i have talked to him about it but you can see it. why am i always the one that noone cares about. im just the little cute thing you can hug and love on and then put under your bed. im not a teddy bear people haha i make myself laugh. my bestfriend is dating this guy who i hate. well i dont hate him he just bugs me. evryhting about him almost. he gives her like no freedom and he thinks i am the worst thing in her life because he knows she loves me more. i miss patrick. i need him. i feel like bursting into tears.

empty teenage rage.

drama drama drama.

we are going to the club tonight. its only 5 bucks and i can dance my problems away.

god fuck shit cunt face!

the end...


almost.
Current Music: elliott smith.
Current Mood: blank

8/28/05 06:58 pm - hair die fun party

ahhh oooo

T D and I are dieing our hair. black. we just woke up. last night was a party. black tape and plastic wrap..mmm yummy. is there anyone out there?

i love dancing to the beat of my own drum

congrats to the new lether and lace. we love u!

ohh lala i can see naked tess

out bicthes
Current Music: duran duran
Current Mood: awake

8/25/05 09:54 pm - scene kids aginst the scene!

mmm hmmm art shows are fun.


ok so pattie tess dorian and i are going to an art show. happy times. friday we are going to the club. and saturday. woo hoo

good times in portland!

its hot. i look like a cracked out grandma! woo hooo artsy fartsy!

vans are cool but not that cool.
Current Music: tori amos
Current Mood: nerdy

8/24/05 04:07 am - wee haaa cowboy.

Kami~ i miss the scene kids from cali. watching tv. with tess. in booty shorts and a tokyo t shirt.god i love that girl. we went shoping today and god i love evrything i bought!

weee haaa

Tess~ talking to dorian on the phone. laying on my hot pink bed. my kitty is laying on it to.

Patrick~ on a bus right now going home to take a shower sleep and clean his amirican aperal. miss him already.

Lea~ being stoned at home with her friend.

Dorian~ talking to tess over the phone. he is over at some old mans house named Victor.

and god i cant wait till the weekend.

cowboy boots and oversized sunglasses dont make u a scene kid.

my ex boyfirend broke up with me becase i died my hair to much and i got to hip...

whatever. that was a long time ago but he told my friend all this shit about me. whoo his new girlfriend is so cute but. um flash. she looks liek me. blakc hair. oversized sunglasses. small. well im smaller but fuck that.

i need a my little pony to make the night pass by faster. and some decemberists.
Current Music: noise
Current Mood: thirsty

8/21/05 03:29 pm

 

YAY US US

a wonderful picture broght to you by kami!

Current Music: the tv
Current Mood: bouncy

8/21/05 12:09 pm - our first

eli the barrowboy,

this one is for you.


lea~ not hear she is at home being marry and most likely baking pie.

Patrick~ is at a rave...boring..he will have no fun with out me.

Kami~ playing music and writing on livejournal..lookie what we have hear,

I don't suppose you want to?

So we turned off the tube and we crawled to your room
leaving discarded clothes in our way
and we both had some fun, though I twice bit my tongue
and it lasted too long for my taste
and there's this nagging suspicion that won't leave me alone tonight
its just that everything I try to do, nothing seems to turn out right.
Current Music: rilo kiley
Current Mood: cranky
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